words for you.

we know that in life we face many unexpected things, so we could be stronger, we could be better, we shall learn anykind of life lessons from them. so do I.

I have got maaannnyyyy people who love me and I love them more, of course. I've got family and friends who adore me much much much more than I expect. I love youu abah mama kak ais kak niko and my big families and my friends since i was born to this world who keep supporting me in my weakest and happy for me in my best. Love youuu, this post is for you all! {}

what I wrote.

I had ever failed before. not only once, more. not getting what I wanted and I planned to be. But, that's what life is. That's which keeping me stronger, more and more. Which giving me the courage to go on and learn from it. Now, I want to give my life through its best. no matter where I'm standing now, no matter how far away this from my imagination before. I'll stand, pridely. I'll give all of my potention, skills to it. I'm still a young girl, anyway. :p Better to fail when we're young than regret when we're already old, right?               YOSH! Ganbarimashooo!!! The Big Dream is still waiting to be catched!!!

this is life, this is my journey which God has chosen for me to live in , to walk in. :))

Kepp stronger, girl!

Kamisama no Karute

Kamisama no Karute? Yap. Itu judul film! Aku baru aja nonton film ini, ini film lead roles-nya Sakurai Sho sama Miyazaki Aoi . Mereka berperan sebagai suami istri. Sakurai Sho (berperan sebagai  Dr. Ichito Kuriharai ) sebagai dokter, sementara Miyazaki Aoi (berperan sebagai Haruna) sebagai fotografer.

Menit-menit pertama, entah kenapa agak bosen sama jalan ceritanya. Jadi ini film bercerita tentang kehidupan seorang dokter Dr. Ichito Kuriharai (Sho Sakurai). Dia itu bekerja di sebuah klinik di Nagoya perfecture. Nah, klinik itu serba keterbatasan, dokternya sedikit sementara pasien yang berobat banyak, jadi dokter yg praktek sering sampai malem bahkan nginep.

Nah terus, semakin ke tengah lumayan seru, tapi tetep aja aku malah ngantuk -_- .

Jadi cerita berlanjut ke yang lebih kompleks, ada kisah seorang pasien kanker.

Sebenernya ada rumah sakit (semacam medical school yg jauh lebih canggih dr klinik itu) mendiagnosa si Ibu tadi kalo umurnya tinggal setengah tahun, nggak ada pengobatan yg bisa nyembuhin, jadi ibu itu disuruh melakukan hal-hal yg menyenangkan semasa hidupnya. Sedih banget. T_T

Padahal suami si Ibu udah meninggal, she has no lovable nor enjoyable things again in her life (what she tought before).

Tapi semua itu berubah, ketika si Ibu bertemu Ichito sensei. 

Si Ibu minta dirawat, yg penting si Ibu di rumah sakit aja.

Akhirnya ibu itu dirawat, meski dokter tau tidak ada solusi penyembuhan buat si Ibu.

Nah, tengah ke akhir cerita mulai seru. Intinya, cerita gimana si Dokter dan perawat di sana merawat ibunya itu sampai akhir hayatnya. Merawat seseorang dengan hati, meskipun memang tidak ada solusi penyembuhan. :''') Pokoknya akhir-akhir touchable banget. This movie worth to watch, guys! ;)

Intinya, makna yg bisa diambil dari film ini:

'Kadang, kita harus melepas sesuatu yg mungkin dilihat kebanyakan orang lebih baik dan prestige, demi hanya untuk mengikuti apa kata hati kita. Meskipun itu akan membuat kita lelah, bekerja sepanjang malam, capek, tetapi kepuasan hati kita dan orang yg kita buat bahagia itu jauh lebih berharga.

Juga, di akhir-akhir ada dialog yg bagus:

Ichi-sensei: ...the God there is not the God of childbirth though.

Haru-chan: It doesn't matter. God is God.

Ichi-sensei: I see

Ichi-sensei: Our prayers did reach the Gods, right?

Aaah, ini film yg meaningful banget! Suka alur ceritanya, terus setting tempatnya juga bagus-bagus banget!  I gave this 4/5 stars! :D

Ini beberapa screencap adegan di film-nya yg menurutku keren XD

dreams

that is a picture I made just to remind me that to reach all of our hopes, expectations, and everything we want to achieve and let me say that all as DREAMS. all I have to do is to do the hardwork on my efforts and prays.

HARDWORK and PRAY are equal = achieving Dreams =D

tears

there're times, when we're growing up, being a teenage, being an adult, we felt someone different. we miss the way we are threated as a child. the way mom and dad gave a big hug when we cried. now, I miss them. i cried out night, feeling clumsy, lonely, childish. why people should change? why the condition should change? why we have to be apart with people we loved?

simply answer of that sort questions, cause we're living. everything change, people change, world change. i knew that but i dont know when i could accept everything. I use to but my heart not. you know how it feels?